Goodnight! 🌙

Today was a good day.

Besides them playing mind games with me again.

I got blessed big time, and I blessed in return.

If they really want me to be afraid of going to prison. It’s working and eating me up inside. I guess I shouldn’t let them rent space in my head anymore.

If I have to give up crack cocaine in exchange for my freedom, I will!

I shared my poem with you. I wrote it while I was smoking weed and drinking beer. Me and my friend were on the topic of death and what comes after, and I was reminded of the time when I tried killing myself.

I don’t want to die, but I guess I’m not afraid of it anymore. It was peaceful to me. It’s was completely black with nothing there but my very existence.

I’d rather be alive and free to be able to do me, though. I want to be able to get a house one day. Pay off all my debts and work on my credit score. Then, take a home loan out from the bank and get a house. I’m thinking I’ll be satisfied with a trailer home!

I’ve also been thinking about dating and marriage. I’m thinking of joining the MGTOW community! When I date women, they always seem to exploit my weakness (my paranoia), and they always play with my emotions. They drive me crazy. I love broads, but the majority of them just seem to be toxic for me. It sucks cause I’ve always dreamed of getting married and raising a family, but all my girlfriends ever wanna do is fight for petty shit. I’m just thinking of not wasting my time anymore on these women. A woman friend once told me that 85% of women are narcissists. That only leaves 10% of women who are good (if they’re not already taken), and the last 5% are dead.

Well, that’s it for tonight. I’m going to munch on my snacks and watch YouTube or watch a movie tonight before I go to sleep.

Goodnight 🌙